My 1st Experience was SCARY

For the last 5 or 6 days I've been doing a lot of research about astral projection. I've downloaded guided meditations to help me 'get outside my body.' I've listened to those several times with no luck. I got a light tingling and a sort or upward motion but that's it. I know I'm new at this and it will take a lot of practice but two morning ago I had an extremely terrifying experience… Me and my husband were laying in bed asleep and the phone rang. He answered and I heard the voice on the other end confirming his appointment for Monday. He hung the phone up and stayed in bed a few minutes. Then I had a thought of being in his dad's house (were many have had scary paranormal experiences. I was standing at the top of the stairs in between the bedrooms. At the same time the whole left side of my head starting this really intense tingling. The only way I can describe it is like your arm has been asleep for a while and when blood rushes back through it you get the tingling, needle prickling feeling. Well, magnify the tingling by like 5 and minus the needles. Really intense feeling just in the left side of my head. In my quick thought of just being at the top of the stairs I felt scared and started to run into the 'pink room' (the room on the left where we slept while there). Then it dawned on me that with this tingling I may be trying to Astral Project and there was no way I wanted to be in that house when I left my body. I thought, 'Oh no! I don't want to be here!" So I concentrated on my body laying in bed. The intense tingling was really uncomfortable and I was trying to ease it off but it was spreading quickly all over my body. It was very overwhelming. Then all of a sudden it was like someone grabbed me by my ankles and was lifting my legs up. I didn't like the feeling of a presence with me because in my fear I thought I was attached to that house. I was trying to fight it and couldn't. Then I felt like I was pulled to the right and was halfway hanging off the bed, from my lower back down was off the bed. My butt was sort of downward and my legs were being lifted in the air. It felt like an entity was trying to pull me out of my body and I could feel it saying, "Come on and let go because this is what you've wanted." And I was fighting back…"Not like this, not with you!" I remembered my husband was still laying in the bed and I tried to grab him with my left hand. I couldn't feel him at all. It was like he wasn't there, but I knew he was. There was a really loud buzzing noise in my ears. The feeling all over my body was so intense and I was terrified by this and the thing that had a hold of me. Then I could feel the bed moving a little and Jerry got up. I was trying so hard to scream, move my body...anything to get his attention so he could help me. But I just couldn't. He walked on by me not knowing what was happening to me. All I could do was try to stay in my body and fight this thing trying to pull me out. I was kicking and thrashing about. I heard the bedroom door close when Jerry went into the living room. All of a sudden my ankles were freed and this thing grabbed me by my chest somehow. It kind of felt like I had a tight t-shirt on and it grabbed on with both hands. I could feel two hands perfectly. It jerked me up and we flew across the room so fast. I ran into the wall right by the door, under the clock. It didn't hurt at all. It really didn't even feel like I ran into anything, I just stopped there and fell down some. I was close to the floor now and I realized this thing had went through the wall and let go of me. The next thing I knew I was back in my body trying to hard to wake myself up. I kept telling myself, "Wake up! Wake up NOW!, " and I could feel this presence coming close to me. THEN I remembered the loving white light and started surrounding myself with it. The presence faded out and was gone. I was still very tingly and the buzzing noise was calming down. I couldn't move yet though. It took a couple minutes to be able to move my fingers and then slowly, the rest of my body. I don't know what to say about this experience except OMG!!! I didn't like it at all. But honestly I was so caught up in fear that I couldn't allow myself to let go and check it out. I was to do this so bad! My grandmother used to tell us her 'mind travel' stories and she's tell us things about ourselves that she couldn't have know. So literally all my life I've wanted to do this. But the feeling taking me over all of a sudden without trying and feeling that I was being pulled out by something or someone was terrifying. I am continuing to try because there's no way I'm giving up on this. I want this too bad! But since my scary experience I have a hard time relaxing. I try so hard but I think the fear is preventing me even more now