Hi guy's, I'm new to this website so first and foremost, it's a pleasure to meet all of you! And god am i happy i found you! Let me tell you a little bit about myself. I've been fascinated with Astral Projection since about 2003. Have been trying to project consciously since then, and have little to no success. (I'll get into more detail about that towards the end). I've read about every book you can imagine, from Robert Monroe to Robert Bruce and just about everything in between and have tried just about every technique in the book, from "The Rope" technique to Binaural Beats. Nothing seems to work for me. I dont really know where to start so i'll just start listing off the brick walls i encounter.
1.) NO DONT PAY ATTENTION TO THE VIBRATIONS!!! - For me, the famous pre exit vibrations feel like i'm bouncing up and down on a trampoline, that repeated sinking and rising feeling. Well, no matter what level of consciousness i'm at and that happens, my brain instantly hones into it. No matter how many time's i tell myself it's natural, my brain say's "Um yeah, screw you guy i'm investigating." And obviously, once i unintentionally give the sensation attention, everything starts going downhill. I feel my light body start molding back into my body, my rapid heart chakra sensations slow down and stop and the vibrations fade...and of course, the experience is over. How....HOW do i get past that?
2.) Lungs can you breath please? Thank you! - This doesnt happen every time, however when it does, it can be a bit scary. I'll start getting sensations, i'll feel my light body wiggling around, i like to call it stretching :), my heart chakra will start thumpin like a steam engine, everything's going good annnnnnnnnnd then "I CANT BREATH!". I feel my chest rising and falling but i feel like i'm not breathing anything in. My body feels like it has absolutely no air. Of course, my brain hones into this as a red flag and then minutes later the experience is over. Help please?
3.) I know i dont weigh a thousand pounds...? - Sometimes, I feel that DO actually get out of my body. I'll usually come to, still in my bed but I'll feel extremely groggy. I have to literally fight to sit up, most cases after that fight my body will slump to the side and crash into the ground which then I'll wake up back in my bed, same groggy feeling. I might make it a few steps away from bed before my knee's buckle and i crash into the ground again and wake up in my bed again. This dance will usually last about 30 to 40 minutes of repeatedly buckling under the weight of what feels the entire universe until i finally actually wake up. I've done everything from asking for help to trying to get away from body but nothing seems to help. Anyone have an explanation for this?
4.) Why must you mock me astral body? - Finally, there have been 2 experiences that i can truely say i was conscious enough that i consider them successful projections. Which i thank god for, because had i not HAD these experiences, i might have given up by now. My first one was actually stemmed from a dream, we all know the Lucid Dream story " AHHHHHH I'm dreaming. Boom, OBE." The second experience makes me laugh but at the same time kind of ticks me off. I laid down, it's a normal night and i dont even bother trying to project, i really didnt feel like trying. Within seconds i got sensations and then i just lifted out of my body. Obviously, i was a little shocked, i looked down and saw myself ( Final Fantasy victory song starts blaring in my subconscious)...then the most beautiful thing happened. A good friend of mine who died in 2005 was there, she was standing at the door to my room and we made eye contact...my heart fluttered and then i felt like i was flying through a tube and BAM....i was in my body again. I looked at the clock and maybe 10 to 15 minutes had past since i had laid down.
After the excitement faded and i thanked the powers that be for that glorious experience, i found myself enraged, here i was trying almost nightly for years....YEARS to project and then just one day i say meh, i'm done and POW full blown OBE?? I dont understand it. I don't know what i'm doing wrong. I know it's a lot to read through and I appologize for laying it out on the table like this but....can anyone please help me out?...literally. Thank you.