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Here is the story. I am fourteen years old. I have been communicating with ghosts since I was 6. I see them everywhere I go, not only with my third eye but also with my physical eyes. They give me messages, call my name, they follow me around like dogs. One of the scary parts is that I can tune into any person, tell them exactly how many spirits are in their house, what they look like, and I can converse with them. I have 9 spirits in my house at any given time. Well, those are the ones that I have sensed or spoken to. God knows how many more are here. I know for a fact that I am attracting them like a magnet. I live in the middle of nowhere so it is absolutely terrifying to take a walk down the road at peace, then suddenly see a person approaching you, they are translucent, or they are bloody and disfigured. The nicest spirit at the moment is an 8 year old girl named Megan who is literally following me everywhere ( don't worry, she isn't sapping me of my energy). She keeps tailing me but she protects me. Always says hello when I come home, participates and helps me with pendulum dowsing and stuff...the problem? Her image is absolutely horrifying. She wears a pink and white ankle length nightgown. She has dark skin, short dreadlocks...nothing wrong there. But her face? Normal, but with two dark, gouging nasty holes instead of eyes. Really sickening. I don't know what people or spirits look like during OBE, but I know that if I manage OBE, I will definitely be seeing the spirits in my house. Maybe being superpsychic will affect this? Whatever the case, I do NOT want to see spirits like I do on tthe physical plane. Nope, I would not mind talking to them, sending them on, traveling with them...but seeing them how they died or with holes for eyes? The thought makes me want to vomit.
A couple of nights ago I attempted astral projection. I have never done it before (if I did, I don't remember). But I went into the vibration state within 5 minutes of meditation, I just focused on my breathing, and I immediately felt my astral body floating a few inches above the physical. I don't think I was in sleep paralysis, so it did not work, but it was relatively easy to see the spirits and details in my room with my eyes closed (normally I see ghosts with my open eyes or third eye)...anyway, my dad closed my door shortly after turning on the hallway light, so I woke up and immediately fell asleep. Not bad though, because I had a very fun lucid dream :)....I am just very afraid of seeing spirits in a human like form. They're always with me, it is like a part of me I never want to let go of. I'm just so afraid of seeing their grossly distorted selves. It is not holding me back during projection...I have no fear when I try to project...just the thought of seeing the ghosts though....sure, I have specially manipulated my own energy field that keeps them away. But just knowing that if I let my guard down I will see them makes me want to cry. Also not only do I want to see what spirits look like during OBE, but what if I hold my hand up and look in it? What do you look like through a mirror? In my lucid dreams, looking in a mirror means seeing a shadowy black figure staring back with red eyes. I am actually afraid of mirrors, and I have a huge one in my room....ugh, I'm suck a newbie I don't even know what to think.
