Hello!

Hello my name is Chris and I’ve been meditating for about two years now, I have had lots of really profound experiences and have been going through a spiritual awakening since I began meditating that has gotten much more intense in the past 6-7 months. My first meditation was with a full 7 chakra guided meditation and I had a beam come out of the top of my head, body shaking, tears running down my face energy absolutely pumping out my dome. I go outside to have a smoke after and there’s a perfect circular hole in the clouds above my head. I was totally amazed and kind of relieved because I knew that this world had more to offer than what I could see on the surface and I had found it. The next few meditations were just like that as well as a couple really intense pulsing and download like feelings that came in from my crown and saturated my whole body. All of these experiences made me want to try magick so I did some chaos magick research and found a technique, it took me two days to gather all of the materials and write out all of the chants and sigil, I charged the sigils with that same energy beam and went to the park to preform the ritual on a full moon night. When I had finished the ritual a flock of pure white birds flew over the ritual site in a perfect V at exactly 12 (which is when I timed the ritual to finish) my ritual partner was filled with a overwhelming amount of love and bliss, meanwhile I had just looked at them and said, “yep that makes sense” like I had kind of expected it but not really. I looked away for a second then looked back and they were gone. This ritual was designed to help me leave my home town which it did, in a pretty grand way. All of that happened in the span of about a month and there’s so much I’m leaving out. I hope I can find a community here to help me understand some of this stuff without having to use ChatGPT or other AI stuff cause AI is mostly wrong and well.. it’s AI.If any of y’all wanna here more, especially about my past childhood and most recent experiences I’d love to share. Weird stuff had been happening to me since I was a little kid that I haven’t really found a good concrete answer for until recently.

Sorry for the grammar.